Must be fast as lots going on here tonight, sorry it's been a while (should be my default first line!)
ANYWAY..
My mum called me Tom today.. like 3 times!! :D :D AMAZING
been an awesome day for that :D
plus I got my hair cut which is always good :)
so yes, very happy about that!
Quick catch up -
living at home now with mum and dad for 6 weeks as the break did need operating on, had the op Sunday 31st July (4.30pm-ish) got 1 screw bone to bone, a plate and 6 more screws holding the plate in place.. cant wait to see the x ray of it now!
I'm in a cast for 6 weeks and can't do sweet FA so just sitting around on playstation..
let me know if I don't already have you on the playstation thing.. I'll add you
Night
Sunday, 7 August 2011
Thursday, 28 July 2011
Leg :/
I know it's been a while and I'm sorry, I can't catch up on everything because most of it, I've forgotten :P
I'm writing to you now from a hospital bed! I broke my leg (falling over) and they're keeping me in until they decide if they want to operate or not.. It's looking quite likely that they will! D:
The problem is the pointy bit of bone (the top half) that is broken and now rudely poking my ankle bone, if the swelling goes down and it moves away, all will be good, if not, then it'll need pinning and stuff.. So yeah, I'm in hospital because I'm a fool :P They had no idea which ward to put me in so I get my own room :D I told the nurses and doctors I want to be known as Tom and none of them have a problem with it :D So that's all good on that front!
All my friends have really pulled together over the last couple of days, from answering my crying plea at 11pm when I was lying outside my front door to carrying meup and down stairs, waiting hours on end in A&E, driving me back to the hospital, waiting again for hours, bringing me my favourite foods, and a teddy, and nuts magazine, and puzzle books, goin to my house and bringing me clothes and laptop, giving me money for the extortionate TV in here and most of all, giving me support and company :D (and much more I cant be arsed to mention)
My friends are AWESOME :D
I really appreciate it guys :D
It's the little things that I miss about having 2 functioning legs.. Like stability when brushing your teeth.. being able to pull your trousers up without resting your body weight through your head on a wall! LOL! If anyone was to watch me get dressed this morning! was a right sight.
My phone is completely fucked over, It's saying it's in airplane mode and no matter what I do, I cant turn that off! I've taken the battery out, restarted it, played with all the settings.. airplane mode wont go away.. plus my phone keeps restarting itself ever half hour or so, im just letting it now.. So for a bit, I'm phoneless but going to get the old festival phone out so at least I can ring and text! :D need to copy over numbers actually, might start writing them down now, not like I dont have enough time!
Trying to think of other things to say but my mind has gone blank.. No doubt I'll be on later, considering I have so much time to kill!
I'm writing to you now from a hospital bed! I broke my leg (falling over) and they're keeping me in until they decide if they want to operate or not.. It's looking quite likely that they will! D:
All my friends have really pulled together over the last couple of days, from answering my crying plea at 11pm when I was lying outside my front door to carrying meup and down stairs, waiting hours on end in A&E, driving me back to the hospital, waiting again for hours, bringing me my favourite foods, and a teddy, and nuts magazine, and puzzle books, goin to my house and bringing me clothes and laptop, giving me money for the extortionate TV in here and most of all, giving me support and company :D (and much more I cant be arsed to mention)
My friends are AWESOME :D
I really appreciate it guys :D
It's the little things that I miss about having 2 functioning legs.. Like stability when brushing your teeth.. being able to pull your trousers up without resting your body weight through your head on a wall! LOL! If anyone was to watch me get dressed this morning! was a right sight.
My phone is completely fucked over, It's saying it's in airplane mode and no matter what I do, I cant turn that off! I've taken the battery out, restarted it, played with all the settings.. airplane mode wont go away.. plus my phone keeps restarting itself ever half hour or so, im just letting it now.. So for a bit, I'm phoneless but going to get the old festival phone out so at least I can ring and text! :D need to copy over numbers actually, might start writing them down now, not like I dont have enough time!
Trying to think of other things to say but my mind has gone blank.. No doubt I'll be on later, considering I have so much time to kill!
Tuesday, 12 July 2011
Hey, since last time I posted a fair bit has happened but a lot I can't talk about on the internet :/ Useful for blogging I know..
Anyway, I'll say what I can.. I imagine the party was good this weekend, many positive came out of it as far as I can tell :P Plus when all my friends are pissed at 5am and I'm at work, I don't mind so much all the random phone calls!
The door is still not fixed and tbh I don't think it will be in the foreseeable future, I haven't seen my boss yet and I'm avoiding her like the plague!
I went to the beach the yesterday, it was actually reall good, the weather was alright so got a bit of lying in the sun in :) then it pissed it down! So we retreated to the car but decided to run from the car into the sea for a quick swim anyway while it was raining. It was really nice and refreshing and spontaneous but my god was it cold!! The person I was with was in a 5mm steamer wetsuit and apparently she thought it "wasn't that bad" good for her! I was in shorts and a rash vest!! Trust me.. It WAS that bad :P
Very good day though anyway :)
Yesterday morning, I went to BBC Newcastle Radio and recorded some stuff about being trans that was broadcast today. Honestly it was so scary!! It was all for the run up to pride and get a bit more recognition out there but still.. Scary shit..
I really didn't know that was how my voice sounded.. I dont know how I thought my voice sounded but that wasn't it!!
Anyway, I'll say what I can.. I imagine the party was good this weekend, many positive came out of it as far as I can tell :P Plus when all my friends are pissed at 5am and I'm at work, I don't mind so much all the random phone calls!
The door is still not fixed and tbh I don't think it will be in the foreseeable future, I haven't seen my boss yet and I'm avoiding her like the plague!
I went to the beach the yesterday, it was actually reall good, the weather was alright so got a bit of lying in the sun in :) then it pissed it down! So we retreated to the car but decided to run from the car into the sea for a quick swim anyway while it was raining. It was really nice and refreshing and spontaneous but my god was it cold!! The person I was with was in a 5mm steamer wetsuit and apparently she thought it "wasn't that bad" good for her! I was in shorts and a rash vest!! Trust me.. It WAS that bad :P
Very good day though anyway :)
Yesterday morning, I went to BBC Newcastle Radio and recorded some stuff about being trans that was broadcast today. Honestly it was so scary!! It was all for the run up to pride and get a bit more recognition out there but still.. Scary shit..
I really didn't know that was how my voice sounded.. I dont know how I thought my voice sounded but that wasn't it!!
Saturday, 9 July 2011
Insane day
I have no idea where to start so I appologise that this will be all jumbled up..
Ok, so sister's wedding.. Completely wasn't my intention but came out to most of my family then and everyone took it really well! Plus was a really good day :D All round good I would say! Was quite good as well for my parents to see other people take it so well :)
Came back to Newcastle to have my shifts changed and was covering someone else all week (why I've not been on here) and realised I miss people!! I was working surrounded by other people in normal 9-5hours on weekdays! I was even using my brain too.. So I've had enough with my normal job, I can't hack being alone for this long every day.. So I was looking for other jobs whilst at work on night shift (where I am now at the normal place) and then managed to do something that may well get me fired anyway! I accidentally smashed a door frame, and I know that sounds intentional but it was genuinely an accident!! So I need to find a way to explain that to my boss without getting a P45 shooting through the letter box! Although gives me a good reason to get my CV in order!!
Ok, so I'm sat here with a broken door, and part of the door frame has cut my hand.. and I realise I keep a screw driver with me! Bonus, fix the door frame, job done, noone will know.. But then I go and break my screw driver and in trying to fix my screw driver I need a screw driver.. but it is clearly broken. All in all today has been a bit of a disaster at work.
One of my best mates is having a house party tonight and a load of my friends are there. A few were saying I should just ring in sick and go to the party.. I really wish I had now!!But these things happen.. It was genuinely an accident and if they sack me for that.. then ill just have to get a new job fast.. Life goes on
It's a laugh or cry thing and I cant be arsed to cry over stuff like that so I'm laughing my head off!
Also, in other good news, the forum has a chat thing that is actually damn good :D great to be able to talk to other people :) I'm enjoying this feature..
So really, although a lot of shit has happened today, I'm having a pretty good time lol Went to the pub with friends today for lunch :) was good to see people and catch up. Although it was well established that phones are taking over our lives as there were far too many moments when it was deadly silent and we were all playing on our phones.. I'm as guilty as anyone else for this (if not more so) but seriously.. It's going too far when you talk to the other person in the room on your phone lol
Ok, so sister's wedding.. Completely wasn't my intention but came out to most of my family then and everyone took it really well! Plus was a really good day :D All round good I would say! Was quite good as well for my parents to see other people take it so well :)
Came back to Newcastle to have my shifts changed and was covering someone else all week (why I've not been on here) and realised I miss people!! I was working surrounded by other people in normal 9-5hours on weekdays! I was even using my brain too.. So I've had enough with my normal job, I can't hack being alone for this long every day.. So I was looking for other jobs whilst at work on night shift (where I am now at the normal place) and then managed to do something that may well get me fired anyway! I accidentally smashed a door frame, and I know that sounds intentional but it was genuinely an accident!! So I need to find a way to explain that to my boss without getting a P45 shooting through the letter box! Although gives me a good reason to get my CV in order!!
Ok, so I'm sat here with a broken door, and part of the door frame has cut my hand.. and I realise I keep a screw driver with me! Bonus, fix the door frame, job done, noone will know.. But then I go and break my screw driver and in trying to fix my screw driver I need a screw driver.. but it is clearly broken. All in all today has been a bit of a disaster at work.
One of my best mates is having a house party tonight and a load of my friends are there. A few were saying I should just ring in sick and go to the party.. I really wish I had now!!But these things happen.. It was genuinely an accident and if they sack me for that.. then ill just have to get a new job fast.. Life goes on
It's a laugh or cry thing and I cant be arsed to cry over stuff like that so I'm laughing my head off!
Also, in other good news, the forum has a chat thing that is actually damn good :D great to be able to talk to other people :) I'm enjoying this feature..
So really, although a lot of shit has happened today, I'm having a pretty good time lol Went to the pub with friends today for lunch :) was good to see people and catch up. Although it was well established that phones are taking over our lives as there were far too many moments when it was deadly silent and we were all playing on our phones.. I'm as guilty as anyone else for this (if not more so) but seriously.. It's going too far when you talk to the other person in the room on your phone lol
Thursday, 30 June 2011
Nearly the weekend!
My weekend starts at 7pm today! woooo! I'm excited! All I need to do tonight is rush home, pick up a few things, feed the kids and make sure they have enough water to last the 2 days that I'm leaving them and then shoot away bound for "home home" in Birmingham. Off to see my family for my sisters wedding tomorrow!
My mum checked with me yesterday if I had everything I needed and she has been to get me a new pair of trousers :) basically I think she doesn't believe me when I say I haven't scuffed up the bottom of the smart pair I already own! I have a shirt, tie and jacket too which I'm quite excited about wearing!
I also got my mum to get me some "smuggling sweets" for the wedding.. basically pocket suitable quiet sweets, nothing that will melt/rustle/leak/go sticky.. Nothing beats good planning for a wedding!
My dad is giving my sister away (at the wedding not just in general :P) and whenever my dad does anything posh, he always wears his kilt (not for fun, we have Scottish ancestry)
Well.. I was thinking, at some point I will need a kilt too, and all the other stuff too.. Fancy jacket and socks and all that. I will learn the names for all the stuff one day, I know most but can't spell for my life so "all that" will cover it for now! So yeah, anyway, I want to get all of that but I think that will be a long time down the line before my mum and dad are ok enough to respect me for wearing it rather than thinking it's weird and dis-respectful. Besides, it might be after surgery that I can then be a true Scotsman! haha
I don't really want to leave the kids but will be good to go home, and I'll be back on Sunday morning anyway. Sunday is a BBQ for the women's rugby team I used to play for, very excited about that :D Going to go for attempt no.2 at facial hair for it :D they're all really supportive so i figure if it all goes horribly wrong it's a safe environment for it :) I tend to think, and this is pure conjecture, that when I have applied stubble, regardless of how people know me and habit may play a small role but then people wont make mistakes with my name or pronouns as much..
Getting to a point where I know exactly who tries to do it right and who doesn't, I know it's harder for some than others but to be still having to correct yourself EVERY time means you're just not trying!! I'm sorry but it's just dis-respectful now. Most people have got it down though which is awesome :) It is so great to forget that I once wasn't Tom! To be consistently referred to as "he" :D love it
My mum checked with me yesterday if I had everything I needed and she has been to get me a new pair of trousers :) basically I think she doesn't believe me when I say I haven't scuffed up the bottom of the smart pair I already own! I have a shirt, tie and jacket too which I'm quite excited about wearing!
I also got my mum to get me some "smuggling sweets" for the wedding.. basically pocket suitable quiet sweets, nothing that will melt/rustle/leak/go sticky.. Nothing beats good planning for a wedding!
My dad is giving my sister away (at the wedding not just in general :P) and whenever my dad does anything posh, he always wears his kilt (not for fun, we have Scottish ancestry)
Well.. I was thinking, at some point I will need a kilt too, and all the other stuff too.. Fancy jacket and socks and all that. I will learn the names for all the stuff one day, I know most but can't spell for my life so "all that" will cover it for now! So yeah, anyway, I want to get all of that but I think that will be a long time down the line before my mum and dad are ok enough to respect me for wearing it rather than thinking it's weird and dis-respectful. Besides, it might be after surgery that I can then be a true Scotsman! haha
I don't really want to leave the kids but will be good to go home, and I'll be back on Sunday morning anyway. Sunday is a BBQ for the women's rugby team I used to play for, very excited about that :D Going to go for attempt no.2 at facial hair for it :D they're all really supportive so i figure if it all goes horribly wrong it's a safe environment for it :) I tend to think, and this is pure conjecture, that when I have applied stubble, regardless of how people know me and habit may play a small role but then people wont make mistakes with my name or pronouns as much..
Getting to a point where I know exactly who tries to do it right and who doesn't, I know it's harder for some than others but to be still having to correct yourself EVERY time means you're just not trying!! I'm sorry but it's just dis-respectful now. Most people have got it down though which is awesome :) It is so great to forget that I once wasn't Tom! To be consistently referred to as "he" :D love it
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
Sunshine and fun times
I realised when flicking through my own blog.. I don't actually blog when I'm happy! I think because I don't *need* to and I don't think about it.
So here I am! Happy!
Spent the day at work (boo) then to the driving range with a friend of mine then pizza :D
Was awesome, I had a really good time!
I got a package today with some tools to create fake facial hair for myself.. It's actually really good! I've not perfected putting it on yet but when I do I think it'll look really realistic. One downside really, I don't know how to really get it off, I had a 10min dabble but have work tomorrow and it's late so didn't want to spend long doing it, then had to scrub my face, and I mean really scrub to get it off! At least I know it's sturdy! So I'm very happy about that too :D
It's the little things..
Also planning to go to Alton Towers with the FTM forum later this year which is something to really look forward to!
One of my friends got his deed poll signed and I am so happy for him! The jealousy is downright insane though! I rang my mum and told her and tentitively asked how she feels about my changing my name, seeing if anything had changed.. she passed on the question lol I don't blame her, I kind of threw it into another conversation! They'll come round eventually but I'm going to start pressing harder, name change is reversible! If it all goes tits up I can change it back (I wont but it's my main tactic to getting the parents approval)
So yeah smiles all round
So here I am! Happy!
Spent the day at work (boo) then to the driving range with a friend of mine then pizza :D
Was awesome, I had a really good time!
I got a package today with some tools to create fake facial hair for myself.. It's actually really good! I've not perfected putting it on yet but when I do I think it'll look really realistic. One downside really, I don't know how to really get it off, I had a 10min dabble but have work tomorrow and it's late so didn't want to spend long doing it, then had to scrub my face, and I mean really scrub to get it off! At least I know it's sturdy! So I'm very happy about that too :D
It's the little things..
Also planning to go to Alton Towers with the FTM forum later this year which is something to really look forward to!
One of my friends got his deed poll signed and I am so happy for him! The jealousy is downright insane though! I rang my mum and told her and tentitively asked how she feels about my changing my name, seeing if anything had changed.. she passed on the question lol I don't blame her, I kind of threw it into another conversation! They'll come round eventually but I'm going to start pressing harder, name change is reversible! If it all goes tits up I can change it back (I wont but it's my main tactic to getting the parents approval)
So yeah smiles all round
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