The water has been shut off to my building so I'm dealing with that, all fun and games.
I spoke to my boss this morning about the water thing to keep her informed but she said that she plans to move me to a new permentant site next week. Although this is AWESOME with a proper work rota so I know when I'm working more than a week in advance.. I'm a little worried about starting a new site with new clients as female and having to come out to everyone later. I figure this is the kick up the bum I need to tell my boss about my transition. I have written an email but not sent it yet essentially saying whats going on and that I would like to be introduced as male on the new site and if that means delaying my move to the new site, I'm ok with that. Also asked her about things like my SIA licence and also uniform as I currently have to wear womens :(
I sent my mum the link to this blog yesterday (hi if you're reading this :) ) which was scary.. I get very worried about trying to bring up this topic of conversation because I know it upsets both my parents and I hate upsetting them. My mum said to me this morning that she started reading it but felt like she was imposing and that she felt like she was reading my diary. My family have always been very good with privacy so I can understand where my mum is coming from with that. I am aware that everything I write goes on the internet so is public so I do not write about anything that I don't want people to know about. I think my mum is beginning to see how serious I am about this but I have to learn to be more patient and give her time. It's hard to remember that they have only had a few months to think about this where as I have been wrestling with it for years.
It is my grans birthday today so I rang her this morning, she is completely unaware of my transition and that is the way that will stay. I have no intention of worrying my gran with this. When I rang it was SO difficult to say my old name though, I find that because I see myself as Tom and use my chosen name so much more than my birth name, I forget to change back when talking to family. I managed though without mistake which saved some awkward questions!
My sister and I are going to download this summer :D and she is trying very hard to call me Tom and refer to me as male so I appreciate the effort from her and so looking forward to going away with her and have some bonding time. I feel like I miss out on a lot living 200miles away from my family.
Anyway.. That is my morning so far, shocking how much can happen if you wake up at 5.30am :P
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