Mornin'

Hey, so.. The last few days have been rocky to say the least :/ I can go from miserable to ecstatic and back withing about half an hour if the circumstances are right! Last night was the lowest I've felt for a long long time. I went to salsa and had an alright night, I wasn't getting the steps as well as I had hoped and did last week but I think I'll get them ok with a bit of practice at work lol. It was after salsa that things turned shit. We had to cut salsa short and didn't get to do the higher class, partially because I was struggling and getting annoyed but mainly because I had an obligation to go back and clean the old house (that I've moved out of, the tenancy agreement is up at the end of the month). 
So once I managed to pull myself away and I picked up bin bags on the way, I got to the old house to find one of my flat mates stressing out pretty big, the whole place was a sty and I mean completely disgusting! I'm glad that I spent hours before doing my room and the upstairs bathrooms because I could not face it last night. There were 3 of us there last night cleaning like maniacs really! I cleaned the most disgusting fridge I have ever seen, the smell alone was almost enough to make me sick! (Fabreeze in a fridge works wonders!) I think I was mostly pissed off because I felt like one of the few who had actually cleaned anything throughout the year and still I was there last night when some others weren't and in my honest opinion, definitely did NOT do their fair share! That was the first thing that really rattled me and then I find out that one of the girls just didn't fancy it, decided to stay at home in her new house instead of coming to clean. You think I wanted to be there?! I had a much better offer for things to be doing last night! An offer I wanted to take SO badly, I was so close to not going to clean and I do it because I want my deposit back, yeah a few of us did more than our share but it's about money! I wanted to stay away.. I really did.. That was what tipped it, the fact that I was sat cleaning and heaving at the smell in a house that I had already done my share of when other people couldn't be arsed to do anything and I could have been out dancing for longer and seeing people I care about and doing things I want to spend my time doing. 
I'm so damn short of time it angers me that I HAD to spend my time doing that because other people just didn't fancy it. My own friends have to book in to see me about a week in advance! Even more sometimes!! I'm not even joking! The only times I'm on my own these days is literally for sleeping and that's down to less than 4 hours a night now because I'm up late doing things I
want to do and up early for work. There aren't enough hours in the day!
I'm looking forward to this weekend but I fear it wont help matters. Driving to Birmingham after work tomorrow so that means another late night. Leaving Newcastle at 7pm means getting home around 11pm and I would like to see my family! Plus my car is getting worse and worse so I don't want to push it too hard. 
Then up at a decent time on Friday to see my gran and then go to the wedding. Back Friday night after the wedding, spending Saturday at home with my family (this is where I plan to chill out and rest a little) Then up Sunday morning, early, to get back to Morpeth for the BBQ then Monday get sky installed and do the million and one jobs I have to do with my last day off work and bang, all the holiday/weekend is gone and I'm back at work without much of a break. Awesome. :/
I just want to stop time and go to bed!!
The other thing that is stressing me out other than being knackered ans not being able to do what I want! Is that I'm still knocking around on a damn waiting list for the gender clinic! I really like my GP.. We get on well and I feel like she is very understanding. The only problem with that is that I have moved house, out of her catchment area! I'm really gutted, I plan to ring her today and ask if I can still stay under her care but I fear the answer will be to find a doctor near me :( boo! Not happy.
Sorry this was such a downer, just how I've been feeling last night really, hopefully if today gets better I'll post again and it should be a bit better!