Random

I'm feeling at least slightly happier today so hopefully this wont be as miserable as the last!
Yesterday was a decent enough day, didn't really do a great deal, came off night shift, slept then hung out with a mate most of the day! Played a bit of playstation, had a couple of beers, it was good.
Been on another small cleaning spree which is really not normally like me, but it's like I can't sit still, if I'm not doing anything else, I may as well be cleaning! Feeling very good about my flat though, keeping it very tidy and clean is now a small obsession but I figure it's a healthy one :)
Didn't sleep at all last night, mostly I think because of the heat, it was so warm in my room! Had a lot on my mind last night too :/ Managed to get most of it in order today though and I'm seeing my mum in 2days! SO excited! I'm driving down on Thursday after I finish work for my sisters wedding on Friday. If I'm honest (and I know it's horrible) I really don't care all that much about the wedding, I'm only going because I should, not because I want to. I am pretty happy about seeing my family though. My mum is slowly coming round to the fact I'm a man! She is well aware I'm wearing a shirt and tie to the wedding and keeps asking if I have everything I need. She asked if I was wearing a jacket and I said I was, she was ok with this, although I did tell her I planned to smuggle in sweets in said jacket! She keeps saying things as well that puts me outside of the group of "women" like "I wish it was that easy for women to find an outfit for weddings" so although she doesn't see me as a man yet, I think she is finding it ever more difficult to see me as a woman or, (better scenario) is trying hard to not see me as a woman anymore, or a mixture of the two. I'm not bothered why, I'm just happy! I love my parents so much, them making progress with me being trans really affects me.
Today I'm at work (boring) but after work have an action packed few hours! Got salsa straight after work then going to clean my old house for the last time so I can finally be free of it and sign it off as done! Salsa is going to be amazing, it gives me a proper confidence boost and makes me swagger :P I really love it. I know I've said before, I like the defined gender roles.. I think that's why it boosts me so much, feeling like a proper man :) Sucks it's on the same night that I need to be cleaning the old place but then I'm always doing something or other so things clash a lot. I cannot wait to be free of the old place.. one more night of hellish cleaning and a few (big) bills and it's gone! Then it's just new flat and only cleaning one place and paying for one place :D :D
Tbh, now I've thought things through, it's not so bad :) Just some rushing around tonight but I have caffeine and I'm prepared to use it!!